Our
society is contaminated with people who feel unloved, unwanted and unvalued. This
plague is especially evident in the huge number of dead-beat dads Consider this
data on single mother homes: “Official
U.S. data shows that 63 percent of youth
suicides (5 times the average), 70 percent of youths in state-operated
institutions (9 times the average) and 85 percent of children with behavioral
disorders (20 times the average) are from fatherless homes. The National
Principals Association Report stated that 71 percent of all high school drop
outs (9 times the average) come from fatherless homes. Other research reveals
that 75 percent adolescents in chemical abuse centers (10 times the average)
and 85 percent of youths in prison (20
times the average) come from homes without a father’s presence.”[1]
Girls without fathers are notorious for their promiscuity[2],
which researchers believe serves both as a form of “self-mutilation” as they
devalue themselves and an ongoing search for appreciation.[3]
Boys who feel unaccepted are likewise drawn to gangs, where they can feel both valued
(as part of the group) and valuable (as they defend the group by violence, graffiti,
et cetera).[4] The
desire to belong is so fundamentally a human need[5],
that when it is missing it will always be sought out elsewhere, and will
consistently be sought in the wrong places. My own anecdotal experience, which
I was not able to find research on, indicates that children raised in unloving
homes will grow up to marry unloving spouses, constantly seeking their
approval, but never really gaining it.
A Whirlwind Romance
It is with this somber knowledge that we turn to a story in the Bible of a
woman who was totally unloved. Her parents named her Leah, which means either wild-cow[6]or
weary[7],
neither of which compares favorably with her younger sister Rachel, which comes
from the root word for lamb. Rachel was beautiful, Leah was not. Rachel was
cherished, Leah was apparently not. Think about living in that family situation, and
standing in Leah’s shoes! Now, imagine that a man, Jacob, has come to town.
Immediately upon seeing your sister, he kissed her and shouted. He has now
agreed to serve your father for seven years, with the sole payment being your
sister’s hand in marriage. Your own lot begins to look even more pitiful by comparison.
When the time came for the wedding,
there was a great feast. From a combination of a veil, seven years of
anticipation and probably some feastly beverages, Leah’s father is able to send Jacob to
bed with the wrong sister. Rachel is withheld from him, and Leah sleeps with
him. What a message Leah’s father has sent to her: the only way any man will
ever love you is if we trick him. If you have talked to many young women, I
believe you will have no problem figuring out why Leah went along with it. She
was held under the same delusion as many other girls have since: she believed
she could make Jacob love her with sex, marriage or both. If she just went
along with this, then she would be cared for and valued.
Like many before and after her,
Leah found out how wrong she was the following morning. Imagine her tender
anticipation as she reveals herself, she is vulnerable and her husband is
seeing her for the first time as his wife. Genesis 29:25:
“So it came about in the morning that, behold, it was Leah!
And he said to Laban, ‘What is this you have done to me? Was it not for Rachel
that I served with you? Why then have you deceived me?’”
Can you feel Leah’s heartbreak? As far as the Scripture
records, he said nothing to her, but stormed out to confront her father. Her
father’s suggestion is certainly somewhat short of romantic (Genesis 29:27):
“Complete the week of
this one, and we will give you the other also for the service which you shall
serve with me for another seven years.”
Finish your honeymoon with the cow this week, and we can
have another wedding when you get back. Then you can work for seven more years
in exchange for her[8]. Jacob
agrees, and the more or less unsurprising outcome is as follows (Genesis
29:30).
So Jacob went in to Rachel also, and indeed he loved
Rachel more than Leah, and he served with Laban for another seven years.
Your husband is also married to your sister, and he makes no
secrets of who his favorite is. In fact, at least some of the time, you have to
bargain with your sister to sleep with the man who is your husband (Genesis
30:14-16). What can cure this devastation?
Delusion
Genesis 29:31–32
31 Now the Lord saw that Leah was unloved, and He
opened her womb, but Rachel was barren. 32
Leah conceived and bore a son and named him Reuben, for she said, “Because the Lord has seen my affliction; surely now my husband will love me.”
Doesn’t
that break your heart to read? Leah gets pregnant, and her first thought is: “Now
he will love me!” Sex and marriage didn’t work, but a baby surely will! It
would be unbelievable if you didn’t feel certain that you know this girl. Of
course, a person’s love cannot be bought so easily, as so many who have walked
down this road have found out. Think about the statistics earlier: how many gang
members, promiscuous youth and drug addicts have gotten mixed up with the wrong
crowd looking for acceptance, which was fading away from the moment they
obtained it.
33 Then she
conceived again and bore a son and said, “Because the Lord has heard that I am unloved, He has therefore given me
this son also.” So she named him Simeon.
34 She
conceived again and bore a son and said, “Now this time my husband will become
attached to me, because I have borne him three sons.” Therefore he was named
Levi.
The process continues, but of course, nothing changes. No
one expects it to, except for Leah. We have
just swept over what was probably at least three years of her life[9],
where she has continuously expected that she will earn her husband’s love, if
she waits just a little longer. If she could do a little more for him, then he
would care. Maybe he did treat her more kindly during her pregnancy and fueled
this anticipation, and she would look back on that time to justify her present
expectation. Since people don’t change, I am sure she said things like: “He isn’t
always like this! He used to love me!” But
she had no fulfillment. She looked, but did not find. Unloved, unaccepted and
hopeless! What a tragic story.
35 And she conceived again and bore a son and said,
“This time I will praise the Lord.”
Therefore she named him Judah. Then she stopped bearing.
Leah, at last giving up on winning her husband’s love with
children, decides to praise the Lord. Instead of seeing the blessings in her
life as a way to win the love of others, she now sees it as evidence of the One
who already loves her. Her circumstances did not change – I cannot point you to
a Bible passage where Jacob comes to cherish Leah for who she is, even after
Rachel dies in childbirth – but her perspective did. She is not perfect after
this, she has discovered the secret – do not look to win human love, but look
at the One who already loves you.
What are you giving away in your life as an effort to win
the affection which you know you will never really have? We all have holes in
our life, but God has given us unshakeable belonging in Jesus. If you have come to Christ,
He has made you His child and accepts you on those intimate terms; he has
overlooked all of your faults and sins and taken you up with unconditional,
radical love.
He predestined us to adoption as sons through Jesus Christ to
Himself, according to the kind intention of His will, to the praise of the
glory of His grace, which He freely bestowed on us in the Beloved.
Ephesians 1:5-6
[2]
This study from 1974 is available in full text online, and reports a strong
correlation between a father-daughter relationships and promiscuity (defined in
the study as extra-marital sex at least once a week, with a different person at
least every third time): http://www.amsciepub.com/doi/pdf/10.2466/pr0.1974.34.3.1013
[4] Burnett, Gary, and Garry Walz. Gangs
in the schools. ERIC Clearinghouse, 1994.
[5]
Consider the severity in the Old Testament of being ‘cut off from your people.’
[6] Brown,
Francis, Samuel Rolles Driver, and Charles Augustus Briggs. Enhanced
Brown-Driver-Briggs Hebrew and English Lexicon. Oak Harbor, WA: Logos
Research Systems, 2000.
[7] Gesenius,
Wilhelm, and Samuel Prideaux Tregelles. Gesenius’ Hebrew and Chaldee Lexicon
to the Old Testament Scriptures. Bellingham, WA: Logos Bible Software,
2003.
[8]
Payment plans always sound better when you get the product up front.
[9] Since
breastfeeding would have been the only option (Walmart did not stock Gerber’s
at the time), it could have been much
longer, since some women are infertile during that time.
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